yeah and i think you probably know how you feel you knew his faults but the parts that made you at peace too and that's the important distinction i think than just worshiping a memory you perceive as flawless
i think i probably would have been a pretty shit boyfriend it doesn't feel like we only knew each other for fifty days there's probably a lot i didn't know about him i probably would have done a lot of things wrong he probably would have pissed me off
also i would've had to cheat on him someday to make sure my daughter exists or at least be with someone else to make that happen that's not a very good boyfriend thing to do i guess
there's someone who i want to be that calm place for i feel good doing it and sometimes that person makes me feel like i'm still on the way to egypt back before everything went to shit
i think about that person all the time but i don't talk about that person out loud that often or really ever so i don't know if my face does the thing yours does when you talk about avdol
slow the fuck down you don't know what you would've done but also you know what you're gonna make mistakes and it'll be shitty but the important thing is recognizing when you do and try to change it
i promise i've made mistakes and i probably will with mohammed i mean im not gonna cheat on him or some shit but im so far from perfect
anyway. you can't possibly fuck up as hard as me take sometime to digest all of this for yourself
oh fuck all the time that's a feelings thing not to get too gross on you but almost every time i'm with him he finds a new way to make me feel that way it's the best
and when he looks at you and needs something and you don't even have to think about doing it you're just already doing it because it's for him doesn't matter what it is for him you'd do it
no i'm using you to figure something out but i think i've got it now
you're a good case study because you're a sanguis and he's an iris cordis seems like it's kind of its own thing but sanguis and iris seem like they're made to get fucked up on each other
cordis is yeah i was a cordis for a couple of months then i guess the moons decided it was funny if i was something else but i liked mohammed before the switch so i guess that helps
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and i think you probably know how you feel
you knew his faults
but the parts that made you at peace too
and that's the important distinction i think than just worshiping a memory you perceive as flawless
but yeah
you know.
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i probably would have been a pretty shit boyfriend
it doesn't feel like we only knew each other for fifty days
there's probably a lot i didn't know about him
i probably would have done a lot of things wrong
he probably would have pissed me off
also i would've had to cheat on him someday to make sure my daughter exists
or at least be with someone else to make that happen
that's not a very good boyfriend thing to do i guess
there's someone who i want to be that calm place for
i feel good doing it
and sometimes that person makes me feel like i'm still on the way to egypt
back before everything went to shit
i think about that person all the time
but i don't talk about that person out loud that often
or really ever
so i don't know if my face does the thing yours does
when you talk about avdol
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you don't know what you would've done
but also you know what you're gonna make mistakes
and it'll be shitty
but the important thing is recognizing when you do and try to change it
i promise i've made mistakes
and i probably will with mohammed
i mean im not gonna cheat on him or some shit
but im so far from perfect
anyway.
you can't possibly fuck up as hard as me
take sometime to digest all of this for yourself
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if you fuck it up with him
not that i think you forgot or anything but you know
i'm still watching you
...
hey
does he ever do something around you that's like
it's so cute it just wrecks you in an instant
is that a moonblessing thing or a feelings thing
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oh fuck all the time
that's a feelings thing
not to get too gross on you but almost every time i'm with him he finds a new way to make me feel that way
it's the best
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and you don't even have to think about doing it
you're just already doing it because it's for him
doesn't matter what it is
for him you'd do it
moonblessing thing or feelings thing
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it's all feeling for me
sure there are some instincts but most of it is just like
encouraged by the moon or something
are you worried that the moonblessings are getting mucked up in there or something
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but i think i've got it now
you're a good case study because you're a sanguis
and he's an iris
cordis seems like it's kind of its own thing
but sanguis and iris seem like they're made to get fucked up on each other
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yeah
i was a cordis for a couple of months
then i guess the moons decided it was funny if i was something else
but i liked mohammed before the switch
so i guess that helps
anyway
hope it helps you out
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you helped...a lot, actually
maybe more than you realize
guess everybody was right
you are good at this
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that's how i look at it
hey.
you got this jotaro
all right?
if you can handle that shit that happened in egypt you can handle this.
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by the way
because you helped and everything
january sixteenth
i don't know if avdol told you the date
that's the day we all went after dio
he was first so he doesn't remember the worst of it
but he still might have a bad time that day
just so you know
just in case
especially since the sixteenth is usually the start of iris, right
it might get bad for him
i don't know
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good to know
i usually stick by him during iris, but it might be good to stock up on extra stuff to spoil him huh
what about you
you gonna be ok?
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maybe
i mean i'll get through it
it might be shitty for a while but i won't do anything stupid
i'll
try to talk to someone
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that's probably the best thing you can do for yourself
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i might be busy too
maybe
i'm not sure yet
but i guess we'll see
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well
i hope it'll be a good distraction at least