i dont want us to stop but fuck i dont know there's this part of me that wonders what the fuck is the point if everything we're doing here won't mean anything but we should make the best of the time we have that's what i wanna say but all im feeling is what a big fucking tease this has been that isn't your fault that's just how it is that's how it always is dont dream for anything
I shouldn't have raised everyone's hopes without any proof. Out of all of the stupid life choices I've made, the one good one had to be the cheque I couldn't cash, didn't it? The one time, right after I stopped being afraid of dying! Always the way, haha
Maybe we can choose to stay here forever though. What does it matter if we do, right? Why wouldn't the Prismals want us to stay? We'd be so useful to them. We should stay and keep saving for that house, and if Narancia and Bucciarati come back, and Kakyoin, we should make them stay too. It wouldn't matter either way.
dont apologize first of all i was the one who went to you blubbering and begging for you to live i started this whole mess anyway
but i know how you feel i used to not care about living so much even when i was alive now i have so many reasons to want to be alive i dont know how to deal with that either
but i dont want to stop and maybe we just need to accept that whatever happens will happen
i wanna get married soon maybe we should make a checklist of all the things we wanna try to do together here nothing is for certain except for that you and me
Oh shut up, you just wanted me to try and have a good life. It's not your fault I tried to do some idiotic crusade that I knew would never work. Of course things wouldn't change, otherwise Jotaro wouldn't have come here knowing what he does and
anyway. It's done now. There's no changing what our reality is, so to hell with it. Let's get married this month or something. On your birthday! Fuck it, your birthday would be a great day to do it, and yes the cursing is absolutely necessary to get across my vehemence right now, I'm not taking criticism. And I'm not leaving your side either. The shop can close for this month; I'm sure people will understand when I put a sign in the door saying 'Owner currently having existential crisis, please return in 30 days' or something.
And I don't know why I asked if we were going to keep going on, because there's no way I'm letting you go now. I just want to be with you, really. Cooking or doing really boring daily-life things so I can feel what it would've been like. What do you want to put on our bucket list? We're doing everything you ever wanted to do.
Just add a beard and dye my hair white, I'm sure that's all the work required to be honest? Maybe we can get this VR stuff to make us look older too, so we can laugh at each other as old men.
We can have something really simple to make it easier to plan, if you're not adverse to the idea? Maybe advertise for caterers, get Jotaro on guitar and find an instrument for that one person who said they could play music...Was it flutes and piano and things like that? Goodness, I can't recall. Have it in the Groves, so there's plenty of space. Who needs decorations? We just need to eat and dance and actually get married, and we're definitely doing those because I love you too, even if you're going to feed birds glitter.
GLITTER. PIECES OF PLASTIC, LEONE. PLEASE DON'T DO THAT TO THEIR INSIDES.
Do you want me to look into getting you a business licence here? There's a man who helps Moonblessed skip all the red tape of starting a business, so I can see if he's still around, and Khan el-Khalili can open less often so I can help out. I already had a shop, but you deserve to have this and be the most attractive hardboiled detective ever to exist.
Honeymoon and sex are givens, though I'll make especially sure to make it happen for you, and we're absolutely going on VR dates even if we can't look old in them. I'll show you my old shop, and the real Khan el-Khalili. Maybe all the tourist traps too. Pyramids, Nile, Sphinx.
I can't wait to see Napoli with you, Leone. And...Even if it's hard, I'm also glad we're having this talk. I feel a little better. I hope you do too. I love you more than life itself.
ha i bet we can make that work there was this asshole in napoli whose stand made people old god i dont even know what i looked like i hope i had hair
i know a guy who said he'd bake us a cake i think i know a few other people on instruments oh my god i need to pick an outfit i better go shopping with reimi shit whatever i gotta find you a ring now
edible glitter exists ok???
you know what if there's a way to do that it'd be a help i dont want to be an officer again but i still like figuring things out helping people that's what i wanted to do as a kid
im still kind of fucked up about this but it's better we're talking it out no matter what happens we'll just keep going forward i love you and i'm really glad you were a dick and challenged me to glass blowing and shit because it turned out you were this amazing guy and i couldn't get enough of you
His Stand made people old??? What does that say about him. I can't figure it out. Was he just old at heart, or a child obsessed with growing up? I have no idea and that also sounds horrifying. Somehow, I prefer the man Polnareff apparently ran into while I was...Busy, whose Stand made people get younger.
It'll be fine, we have a few weeks! Everything will work out as it should be, Leone. You'll look amazing, we'll have very nice wedding rings, and worst comes to worst, we can get a tape player or one of those birdbox things.
...I didn't know edible glitter existed, in fairness. Can you blame me for panicking! Add that to the list; show me how to make edible glitter so I can make nice treats for the girls, please?
Leave it to me, alright? I'll see if I can find him again, he was a bit of a character so it won't be hard to track him down. And even if it is, I'll find him. We're making this happen for you; that's a cheque I'm going to cash in person, or so help me!
Haha, I am too, don't worry. I'm kind of glad there's no one coming into the shop right now because I might just be on the floor, covered in chickens and crying into a very nice rug. But you've reminded me that we still have time, and a future. It's not the one we wanted, but we're going to get one by our own hands all the same. So that's...Still an upside to things. And definitely better than thinking about Egypt and Italy outside of technology dates. I don't recall being a dick whatsoever to you when we first met though! I'm fairly certain that we just had a very nice chat about Stands and ate doughnuts and it was all very median, which is why it was so strange that I thought you were incredibly handsome and compelling and that I had to be a part of your life no matter what from word go.
No matter what happens from here on, we love each other, and that's a hell of a thing to find. I'm glad that you know love, and even more glad that I get to love you.
i dont know the guy was part of the assassin squad but i bet you were a cute kid now that im thinking about it
i have a birdbox so worst comes to worst yeah im fine with that i promise i wont be picky its not like youre gonna choose snoop dogg or something
oh yeah i can definitely do that they deserve the best
i took the night off so i get it and im sorry but i fucked up a little i definitely got a bottle of wine drank about half of it poured the rest down the drain my makeup's all fucked up damn
you were a charming asshole who challenged me to glassblowing and then you got me a doughnut but i remember being like "this guy is so weirdly nice" and i couldn't think of a reason to be annoyed by you and every time we talked i always thought you were really considerate and that polnareff and kakyoin were lucky to have you as a friend
I'm glad you poured the rest of the wine down the drain. That's still half a bottle you stopped yourself from drinking. If I clean my face up, I can come over and clean yours too? How does that sound?
You know what I have always adored about you?
The fact that I've always been able to be myself, bit by bit, until it wore away. I never felt like I had to force myself to be more and more for you; you washed away the way I have to be for everyone else until I was all that's left.
I know I say that all the time. I'm sorry. Just give me a few minutes to close up and wash up and I'll be on my way.
[The only response that Abbacchio gets is a bunch of heart emojis, and then--
he has to wait for an hour before Avdol shows up, finally. Look, it takes a long time to fix your hair and get your chickens gathered since they all hid in the shop at the first sign of anguish! But the hour passes and he knocks a little less jauntily than normal (an announcement more than anything else, since he has a key and all), and the girls come flooding in ahead of him.
That hour didn't really do much, to be honest. He still looks like shit; several knots are about to come undone, his necklace is lopsided, and there are several large damp patches on the front of his jellabiya, but that's just how it is on this bitch of a planet.]
Leone? I brought egg tarts. They're a day old, but I've kept them cold so it'll be alright.
[Fuck, he kind of. Decided to keep himself huddled up in his bedroom after he dumped the wine. It was stupid, he shouldn't have gone out to buy it and he knew it was a bad choice, but it could've been worse. At least he didn't make any other stupid decisions other than be horribly sad on the network and at Avdol. He's done way worse, like trigger a whole stupidly naive idea in the first place. He knew it was naive and hopeless but it was nice to chase after it for awhile.
Well. Anyway. He hears Avdol and the girls, so he gets out of bed and reluctantly peers out, because he does feel like a mess. Makeup running down his face and everything! It's very emo.]
Hey. No, that's... that's fine. We'll put 'em in the fridge, have them when we're not feeling like complete garbage.
[Sure, they're both a mess, but he's going to pull Avdol into a fierce hug anyway. So there.]
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but
fuck i dont know
there's this part of me that wonders what the fuck is the point
if everything we're doing here won't mean anything
but we should make the best of the time we have
that's what i wanna say
but all im feeling is what a big fucking tease this has been
that isn't your fault that's just how it is
that's how it always is
dont dream for anything
1/2 i sry
Maybe we can choose to stay here forever though. What does it matter if we do, right? Why wouldn't the Prismals want us to stay? We'd be so useful to them. We should stay and keep saving for that house, and if Narancia and Bucciarati come back, and Kakyoin, we should make them stay too. It wouldn't matter either way.
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i really don't want to die now that i have reasons to live
1/2
i was the one who went to you blubbering and begging for you to live
i started this whole mess anyway
but i know how you feel
i used to not care about living so much
even when i was alive
now i have so many reasons to want to be alive
i dont know how to deal with that either
but i dont want to stop
and maybe we just need to accept that
whatever happens will happen
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soon
maybe we should make a checklist of all the things we wanna try to do together here
nothing is for certain except for that
you and me
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anyway. It's done now. There's no changing what our reality is, so to hell with it. Let's get married this month or something. On your birthday! Fuck it, your birthday would be a great day to do it, and yes the cursing is absolutely necessary to get across my vehemence right now, I'm not taking criticism. And I'm not leaving your side either. The shop can close for this month; I'm sure people will understand when I put a sign in the door saying 'Owner currently having existential crisis, please return in 30 days' or something.
And I don't know why I asked if we were going to keep going on, because there's no way I'm letting you go now. I just want to be with you, really. Cooking or doing really boring daily-life things so I can feel what it would've been like. What do you want to put on our bucket list? We're doing everything you ever wanted to do.
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kinda wanted to see what you looked like older but i can use my imagination
birthday wedding
shit
well
time to bump up the schedule hardcore then
but im ready for that
never gonna have another chance like this and
i love you.
i think
and this is probably fucking stupid but
i want to try to opening a private investigation office
or something
i dont fucking know
sometime
honeymoon
definitely more sex if i dont wear you out
let me use the VR shit to show you napoli. the good parts. and you can show me egypt.
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We can have something really simple to make it easier to plan, if you're not adverse to the idea? Maybe advertise for caterers, get Jotaro on guitar and find an instrument for that one person who said they could play music...Was it flutes and piano and things like that? Goodness, I can't recall. Have it in the Groves, so there's plenty of space. Who needs decorations? We just need to eat and dance and actually get married, and we're definitely doing those because I love you too, even if you're going to feed birds glitter.
GLITTER. PIECES OF PLASTIC, LEONE. PLEASE DON'T DO THAT TO THEIR INSIDES.
Do you want me to look into getting you a business licence here? There's a man who helps Moonblessed skip all the red tape of starting a business, so I can see if he's still around, and Khan el-Khalili can open less often so I can help out. I already had a shop, but you deserve to have this and be the most attractive hardboiled detective ever to exist.
Honeymoon and sex are givens, though I'll make especially sure to make it happen for you, and we're absolutely going on VR dates even if we can't look old in them. I'll show you my old shop, and the real Khan el-Khalili. Maybe all the tourist traps too. Pyramids, Nile, Sphinx.
I can't wait to see Napoli with you, Leone. And...Even if it's hard, I'm also glad we're having this talk. I feel a little better. I hope you do too. I love you more than life itself.
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i bet we can make that work
there was this asshole in napoli whose stand made people old
god i dont even know what i looked like i hope i had hair
i know a guy who said he'd bake us a cake
i think i know a few other people on instruments
oh my god i need to pick an outfit i better go shopping with reimi
shit
whatever
i gotta find you a ring now
edible glitter exists ok???
you know what
if there's a way to do that it'd be a help
i dont want to be an officer again
but i still like figuring things out
helping people
that's what i wanted to do as a kid
im
still kind of fucked up about this
but it's better we're talking it out
no matter what happens we'll just keep going forward
i love you and i'm really glad you were a dick and challenged me to glass blowing and shit because it turned out you were this amazing guy and i couldn't get enough of you
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It'll be fine, we have a few weeks! Everything will work out as it should be, Leone. You'll look amazing, we'll have very nice wedding rings, and worst comes to worst, we can get a tape player or one of those birdbox things.
...I didn't know edible glitter existed, in fairness. Can you blame me for panicking! Add that to the list; show me how to make edible glitter so I can make nice treats for the girls, please?
Leave it to me, alright? I'll see if I can find him again, he was a bit of a character so it won't be hard to track him down. And even if it is, I'll find him. We're making this happen for you; that's a cheque I'm going to cash in person, or so help me!
Haha, I am too, don't worry. I'm kind of glad there's no one coming into the shop right now because I might just be on the floor, covered in chickens and crying into a very nice rug. But you've reminded me that we still have time, and a future. It's not the one we wanted, but we're going to get one by our own hands all the same. So that's...Still an upside to things. And definitely better than thinking about Egypt and Italy outside of technology dates.
I don't recall being a dick whatsoever to you when we first met though! I'm fairly certain that we just had a very nice chat about Stands and ate doughnuts and it was all very median, which is why it was so strange that I thought you were incredibly handsome and compelling and that I had to be a part of your life no matter what from word go.
No matter what happens from here on, we love each other, and that's a hell of a thing to find. I'm glad that you know love, and even more glad that I get to love you.
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but i bet you were a cute kid now that im thinking about it
i have a birdbox so worst comes to worst yeah im fine with that i promise i wont be picky its not like youre gonna choose snoop dogg or something
oh yeah i can definitely do that
they deserve the best
i took the night off so
i get it
and
im sorry but i fucked up a little
i definitely got a bottle of wine
drank about half of it
poured the rest down the drain
my makeup's all fucked up
damn
you were a charming asshole who challenged me to glassblowing and then you got me a doughnut
but i remember being like "this guy is so weirdly nice" and i couldn't think of a reason to be annoyed by you
and every time we talked i always thought you were really considerate and that polnareff and kakyoin were lucky to have you as a friend
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You know what I have always adored about you?
The fact that I've always been able to be myself, bit by bit, until it wore away. I never felt like I had to force myself to be more and more for you; you washed away the way I have to be for everyone else until I was all that's left.
I know I say that all the time. I'm sorry. Just give me a few minutes to close up and wash up and I'll be on my way.
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okay
i wouldn't mind that
im sure with a couple of kids and a manchild you probably felt like you had to be the responsible one huh
but
im glad
i want you as you are always
its ok
ill be waiting for you
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he has to wait for an hour before Avdol shows up, finally. Look, it takes a long time to fix your hair and get your chickens gathered since they all hid in the shop at the first sign of anguish! But the hour passes and he knocks a little less jauntily than normal (an announcement more than anything else, since he has a key and all), and the girls come flooding in ahead of him.
That hour didn't really do much, to be honest. He still looks like shit; several knots are about to come undone, his necklace is lopsided, and there are several large damp patches on the front of his jellabiya, but that's just how it is on this bitch of a planet.]
Leone? I brought egg tarts. They're a day old, but I've kept them cold so it'll be alright.
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Well. Anyway. He hears Avdol and the girls, so he gets out of bed and reluctantly peers out, because he does feel like a mess. Makeup running down his face and everything! It's very emo.]
Hey. No, that's... that's fine. We'll put 'em in the fridge, have them when we're not feeling like complete garbage.
[Sure, they're both a mess, but he's going to pull Avdol into a fierce hug anyway. So there.]