I see. [ She didn't bring it up mostly because it was sensitive. Even now she hesitates, but she'll talk about it if he wants to. However little or much. Sometimes it's nice to have someone to rely on. ] Can only imagine how rough that had to have been. I once had a scare that I lost my other partner -- didn't find him for months, thought he was dead -- but if it was Chris...
[ She wouldn't know what to do. It would have been the one thing that would break her. ]
Don't think it's that hard to see something in you, you know. [ She doesn't add "even at the time," so it's not entirely open for discussion, but she gets the feeling he might argue it regardless. ] Tall, big guy. In a sort of future military outfit. He and I have a lot in common in that regard, but we usually just meet up and drink and I indulge my cheat days. Thank god you haven't seen me eat a big pub burger, you might stop talkin' to me if you did.
It almost killed me, what happened. I probably would've been dead in some back alley if Bucciarati didn't find me when he did. Hell knows I tried.
[It's wild to think about the strides he's made, trying to be better.]
Hell, when I look in the mirror, I still don't know what anyone sees in me, but I've just kinda accepted that's how it is. You see the worst in yourself while others find something worthwhile somehow.
[Abbacchio scoffs.] You can't be worse than the teenagers I used to have to work with. Anyway, I'm glad you have someone to connect to. He express interest in you too?
[ Nothing tired or annoyed with information she'd been previously given. No, it was just plain old acknowledgement. Letting him know that she took what he said to heart and held it close, tried to learn from it and understand him as well as she could.
That regardless of it, she was on his side. ]
That might be the most accurate thing I've ever heard anyone say. It's hard... for me, for example. To see what someone like Chris could see in me. There are younger and prettier women -- I'm not unattractive but I'm not everyone's taste. My nose and... body, you know? It isn't what's considered... "popular" in terms of attractive women, is all.
[ She's telling him mostly because there's no fear with him. He has a partner and she doesn't expect him to try to hit on her or reassure her in any way but what he feels is right. It's embarrassing to Jill to care at all, though. Face red, eyes downcast. ]
I don't think Gabriel would potentially be interested in me in that sense. It's a little blow to my ego, but it's alright.
[How much he'd almost just let himself die then, and die later on. Too cowardly to just do the deed himself and would rather draw it out, be circumstantial. Something. And yet, he found value in living way too fucking late. Isn't that just the way?
He laughs wryly.] I think you're too worried about those aspects. Not everyone is for everyone, and clearly he likes your company. No reason it can't be a combination of liking you for you and thinking you're beautiful.
But I guess you won't know til you ask. And sometimes we don't worry about that shit until suddenly it's important, for occasions like this.
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[ She wouldn't know what to do. It would have been the one thing that would break her. ]
Don't think it's that hard to see something in you, you know. [ She doesn't add "even at the time," so it's not entirely open for discussion, but she gets the feeling he might argue it regardless. ] Tall, big guy. In a sort of future military outfit. He and I have a lot in common in that regard, but we usually just meet up and drink and I indulge my cheat days. Thank god you haven't seen me eat a big pub burger, you might stop talkin' to me if you did.
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[It's wild to think about the strides he's made, trying to be better.]
Hell, when I look in the mirror, I still don't know what anyone sees in me, but I've just kinda accepted that's how it is. You see the worst in yourself while others find something worthwhile somehow.
[Abbacchio scoffs.] You can't be worse than the teenagers I used to have to work with. Anyway, I'm glad you have someone to connect to. He express interest in you too?
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[ Nothing tired or annoyed with information she'd been previously given. No, it was just plain old acknowledgement. Letting him know that she took what he said to heart and held it close, tried to learn from it and understand him as well as she could.
That regardless of it, she was on his side. ]
That might be the most accurate thing I've ever heard anyone say. It's hard... for me, for example. To see what someone like Chris could see in me. There are younger and prettier women -- I'm not unattractive but I'm not everyone's taste. My nose and... body, you know? It isn't what's considered... "popular" in terms of attractive women, is all.
[ She's telling him mostly because there's no fear with him. He has a partner and she doesn't expect him to try to hit on her or reassure her in any way but what he feels is right. It's embarrassing to Jill to care at all, though. Face red, eyes downcast. ]
I don't think Gabriel would potentially be interested in me in that sense. It's a little blow to my ego, but it's alright.
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[How much he'd almost just let himself die then, and die later on. Too cowardly to just do the deed himself and would rather draw it out, be circumstantial. Something. And yet, he found value in living way too fucking late. Isn't that just the way?
He laughs wryly.] I think you're too worried about those aspects. Not everyone is for everyone, and clearly he likes your company. No reason it can't be a combination of liking you for you and thinking you're beautiful.
But I guess you won't know til you ask. And sometimes we don't worry about that shit until suddenly it's important, for occasions like this.