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[freshprints]

Why does that one in particular speak to you?

If I were being difficult, I would draw a conclusion of my own. But as a friend, I would like to hear you explain it for yourself.

[teaserving]

i like the drama of it
no, it's more like
an opera is such an unabashed expression of the self. loud and full of character. usually it's dark and difficult, but bittersweet.
this one in particular, maybe it's because i always found the subject of love to be hard but relatable.

[freshprints]

And it's important to listen to the overture, because that's where you'll hear all the leitmotifs that will come into play later?

I assume the opera ends the same way the story it's based on does. Orpheus doesn't succeed in his aims because of his own failings, and perishes later from his sorrow.

[teaserving]

it's always important to listen to the overture. especially if you like clues.

it's not dissimilar. technically there are two endings, but usually the one performed includes apollo coming down and taking orfeo to the heavens so he can see his lover's likeness in the stars. he ascends after that.

[freshprints]

Oh. That seems...appropriate. Apollo was his father, wasn't he? And his mother was one of the Muses. Calliope?

[teaserving]

in this version anyway apollo was the father
you're right about calliope though
good job

[freshprints]

You'd be surprised how often criminals resort to classical references out of a desire to appear cultured and elite. Grandfather stressed the importance of knowing them. I had a similar experience with one of my

with someone else, and tarot cards. He was surprised I knew a relatively obscure reference to something about the tarot. But that's the sort of symbology that criminals love to draw on.

But on second thought, I probably don't have to tell you any of that, do I?

[teaserving]

you dont but we have that kind of conclusions in common i think

dramatic assholes who consider themselves cultured
using symbolism to draw parallels
god it's dumb but they eat that shit up for sure

but i like opera for itself
for what it is and what im bad at
i feel like i can get lost with it. get a little peace where i cant otherwise.
even around my friends i'd put on my headphones and just kind of co-exist with them
i couldn't keep up emotionally i guess

[freshprints]

When you put it like that...I think I would like it, too.

The point of the opera is to inspire emotion, and to resonate with the viewer, correct? It sounds nice, to sit in a quiet dark theater and just...experience something like that, in a controlled setting and an unobtrusive manner.

[teaserving]

there are operas here you know
well. i dont know them. they're weird alien rock ones. you know how it is.
but you get something similar.

i went on one with yuri.
i wouldn't hold it against you if you didn't care for it, but i'd still go with you, kid.

[freshprints]

Will you keep it a secret if I end up emotionally compromised?

[teaserving]

yeah, of course.

[freshprints]

You're a terrible liar. :)

Did you introduce Yuri to opera, too, then? You're quite the enabler.

[teaserving]

rude :(

it was actually his idea.
he didn't even know i liked it until he brought it up.

[freshprints]

I see. So it's something you unknowingly had in common.

...You make this feel so easy. Talking to you, I mean. You're good at setting me at ease.

[teaserving]

[oh. shit.

That gives him a lot of feelings, and he takes another minute to respond.]

yeah
no problem

i dont think anyone's ever said that to me before though
that i set someone at ease

[freshprints]

Well, neither one of us are very typical people, are we? So maybe that's to be expected.

Is it all right? That I feel that way?

[teaserving]

i guess that's fair

yeah of course
i mean
look
ive always thought of myself as someone who just fucks up all the time
if i can do something good for someone else that's enough for me

[freshprints]

It's interesting how the way we see ourselves doesn't always align with the way we're perceived by others. We're so certain we know ourselves best — we must, since we're the only ones who have all the information, while others only see the parts of ourselves that we allow them to see.

But I think we're just as biased, in our own ways. We put too much weight on what's inside our own heads, and miss other things as a result.

[teaserving]

yeah that's true.
i see usually just the worst parts of me.
the parts that are impatient
looking for shortcuts
giving up

but
im trying to accept that it turns out there are other parts that people find worthy
i dont want to disappoint you, ok?
you got enough of that.

[freshprints]

The window of opportunity for you to disappoint me has already closed. It's not a perpetual tightrope that you have to walk.

I needed you and you opened your arms to me. Twice.

You don't have to keep proving yourself. Not to me.

[teaserving]

i know
i just mean

you make me feel like i want to do better than i was.
and i like to think that might almost be a good thing

[freshprints]

Oh. I...mm. I misunderstood you before, I think. I'm sorry.

If it helps to have me to motivate you to better things, then I encourage that. I don't mind being your purpose for that.

[teaserving]

hey its all right
i probably wasnt super clear

thanks.
you do help.
for what its worth despite everything we've been through im glad i met you ok?

[freshprints]

I'm glad I met you, too. And grateful.

I could have done this alone. I think you could've, too. But it's better that we didn't have to.