Maybe a little. I'm not taking advantage of him, though! I think it's more just that he's just that kind of guy. Gallant, you know? He wouldn't say no to a girl who needed help. Especially not when the help is kissing.
Maybe you should. Think about it, I mean, from that perspective. If he already relies on you, then it just makes sense for it to go both ways.
im really not worried about you taking advantage of him but you're probably right where it counts he doesn't turn his back on someone in need
i know and i trust him when he says that kind of thing but there's that part of me that feels otherwise the same part that's fucking scared that i'm gonna fuck it up
I know. Because it's not really about logic or reason or anything like that. It's just that feeling, and you can't talk yourself out of a feeling no matter how hard you try.
You want to know something funny? Think about how we felt when we first met. It was just a few months ago, and neither of us knew what to do with ourselves.
Now you've got a boooooooooyfriend and I'm building something to last even after I'm gone. That's pretty incredible, isn't it?
I was an orphan when I got here, too, and now I'm not anymore. That's pretty great, too.
oh. yeah, i think so. i miss him, and mostly i just wish i could have had the chance to do something about his future but i try to think that he'd want me to do better too. him and florentino both.
You know, I kind of hate it when people like me say things like "if so and so were here, I'm sure they would think" in situations like this — especially if it's someone they've never met, and have no business putting words in their mouth.
But I feel like Florentino would be proud of you for trying a relationship again. Even if it is kind of scary. He sounds like he was that kind of guy.
i get you. but you're not wrong about him either. he'd probably say something like "i'd want you to move on". which you know i'm absolutely shit at but. i'm trying.
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Maybe you should. Think about it, I mean, from that perspective. If he already relies on you, then it just makes sense for it to go both ways.
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but you're probably right
where it counts he doesn't turn his back on someone in need
i know
and i trust him when he says that kind of thing
but there's that part of me that feels otherwise
the same part that's fucking scared that i'm gonna fuck it up
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i figured you'd get it
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of course i feel happy around him
i feel the most calm around you and him honestly
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What I mean is, I'm glad that he makes you happy. It makes me happy to think about it.
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i want to keep feeling like this
even if it's scary as hell
thanks sorellina
i want you be happy too
all right?
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Now you've got a boooooooooyfriend and I'm building something to last even after I'm gone. That's pretty incredible, isn't it?
I was an orphan when I got here, too, and now I'm not anymore. That's pretty great, too.
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and i was okay with that
but then he was gone so
anyway
yeah
this is definitely far from what i expected of myself
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i miss him, and mostly i just wish i could have had the chance to do something about his future
but i try to think that he'd want me to do better too. him and florentino both.
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But I feel like Florentino would be proud of you for trying a relationship again. Even if it is kind of scary. He sounds like he was that kind of guy.
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he'd probably say something like "i'd want you to move on". which you know i'm absolutely shit at but. i'm trying.
he'd have liked you though.
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But that's good! Then I can tell him all SORTS of embarrassing stories about you and you'll have to stand there and take it, ha ha!
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god you two are gonna be the worst
sharing and talking shit about me
THE
WORST
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Not that it's hard though because everything you DO is cute. :P
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In fact you're so cute right now I think this'll be the story I start with!
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