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[teaserving]

yeah like you always do
i only have instant coffee will that work for you

[freshprints]

I've started using the key sometimes. On occasion.

Is it flavored instant or just regular?

[teaserving]

what was the point of even giving you a key jeez

just regular

[freshprints]

I thought it was because you wanted me to feel safe.

[teaserving]

i wanted you to feel welcome
and know you have a place to go to

[freshprints]

You are the place I go to.

I'm sure you must already know that, but I suppose it bears saying outright.

[teaserving]

yeah
i know but i figured it was worth saying

you're a good kid
i want you to be okay. you know?

[freshprints]

I think so, yes. That I understand what you mean, I mean. I'm not used to people being so invested in my well-being.

For all its faults, though, I think I'm starting to like it here.

[teaserving]

yeah well i know im not the only one

yeah i dont completely hate it either
that's as good as you're gonna get out of me though

[freshprints]

Have you met Commander Ravus Nox Fleuret? We play chess sometimes. He also suggested I spend my time here enjoying myself and trying new experiences, just like you did.

Is it normal to take up hobbies you'd otherwise have no interest in just to spend time with a person you feel affectionate toward?

[teaserving]

with a name like that i'd remember him
so no
but that's good advice

yeah of course.
bucciarati never really lost his roots. he still liked to go fishing sometimes, and i wasn't really into it, but i'd go with him sometimes anyway
it was one of the few times i saw his face look peaceful. it was worth it.

[freshprints]

He's all right. Reserved. Sometimes we spend time together without saying anything. It's comfortable.

Is something as small as a facial expression really so rewarding?

[teaserving]

sometimes you dont need words. i respect that

it's less about the facial expression and more knowing that his heart was content. the fact that i could see it on his face was just a bonus.

[freshprints]

Are you able to

Never mind. Ignore that.

What makes your heart content?

[teaserving]

yeah no what were you gonna ask?

[freshprints]

If I answer your question are you going to answer mine?

[teaserving]

fine but i don't have a nice answer

i haven't felt much peace since being here
there
was just one man who made me feel like the world was bearable somehow despite how shitty it could be
without him i dont really know what to do with myself
the closest i get is if you're around.

[freshprints]

...

I wanted to know if you're able to tell when I'm content. Even if my facial expression doesn't change. Just because I mask my reactions doesn't mean I don't still feel things.

[teaserving]

there are other ways you show it.
i think the fact that you come over so much is enough to tell me already

[freshprints]

You might find another person like that one, someday.

Not a replacement for the first, but just. Someone who makes you feel nostalgic. I think the odds are in your favor, generally.

[teaserving]

it'd be nice to not feel like i was out of control all the damned time
i'll manage
frankly im surprised im doing as well as i am
well maybe not this week
but you know

[freshprints]

Why not this week?

[teaserving]

how about you tell me what you wanted to say before

[freshprints]

...

"Are you able to tell I'm content when I'm around you."

[teaserving]

well
good job me
seeing as how i already answered that:

this week fucking sucks because it's my birthday soon and i dont really feel like thinking about it